July 15th, 2014

     Even all the time in the world would not be enough. You came back for a good two months and I'm not sure how I let that time slip through my fingers again. It's always like this: I sit, suddenly as if I wasn't conscious for awhile and have now regained full awareness of myself, and all the moments that I swore I'd take advantage of are gone. I remember pushing for our family to go to the Museum of Natural History, well what happened to that? And I remember you asking if we could go to Brooklyn Bridge Park, I remember, but what happened to that? It still hasn't hit me fully yet. 

What has hit me, though, is the fact that I really don't know how to love after all. I don't know how to fulfill present wishes with my loved ones and I don't know how to take advantage of our time together. I'm always wishing that it would be over and when it is over, I'm crying for the moments back.

I guess I hope I learn how to in the future. 

                                                                                          Jennifer Autumn Li.